something new..

Sunday, July 15, 2007

this is weird.I clearly remember that I posted an entry few days back but I didnt appear on my blog page.anyway,I was just simply talking about Term three and my term exams.Everything was ok I suppose because I got 2Ds and 2As,pretty extreme huh.I still have LIT paper left,which we will get back sometime this week.so I got D for MATH N GP big deal,but at least I got A for ECONS N GEOG yeah?and excuse me,geog is not as simple as you think because there was a hell lot of stuff to memorise and to cram into my brain so it was a mistake to think that it is so easy to score..yes I know my math sucked,and its not like I didnt try hard enough ok.I did ALL the practice questions in the ten years series under all the topics tested and I found it managable..so dont force a logical explanation out from me of why my math have deteriorate to such level,im still trying hard ok,just give me one more chance. As for GP,yes it my fault that I dont read that much..and ok I'll start reading and do whatever it is to improve my GP marks..then again,just please lay off and give me some space because no matter what you say right now is gona change my term exams results.

whatever then,Im so tired of all these.everytime I try hard(well maybe not hard enough for you)I try to do it for myself and YOU but it never seem to be enough huh.I still vividly remember the last time I wanted to give you a pouch that I specially made myself,and you gave it away to someone else,saying that you wont have the need to use such thing.well probably it was my fault for not thinking for your account if you would need such things,because at the moment when i made it,I just wanted to make it for you,and I was thinking probably you could have used it to put something like keys or whatever.but nevermind.I got it back to myself eventually,and now I dont know where it is anymore.besides what stays in the past remains in the past,I dont want to be such an ass and so petty to bring it all up and start counting debts as if you owe me something.No,i do not hold grudges like these againts you and you certainly dont owe me anything,its just that circumstances make me feel this way and its inevitable you see..so its just a matter of time to let all these feeling pass and fade away.

I guess I never will understand what is the true meaning behind all those lines.or is the true meaning so simple,and that I have been reading between the lines too much all the time when the answer is just simply put right in front of me?I dont know.and I think Im too scared to know,because there is only two possibility outcomes if I ever try..and to me,what I desire and wish so deeply from us is too precious that I dont want to risk losing it,even though I dont have much of it right now.sometimes I dream that you would just come to me and tell me everything was wrong,and all that i perceive and understood was just a mistake and none of us ever meant that way.I wish you could just hold me and tell me everything is going to be ok and we'll be normal once again.At times i wish Im just wrong,and all the worst scnarios that Ive ever imagine would never happen because Im just being too paranoid worrying about this.

I need an answer.

Friday, June 29, 2007

terms over!

finally term exams is over!right after geog paper,Gnet and I went all the way to raffles and started queueing for THE donuts.Its really bizzare seeing people willingly queueing for HOURS just to purchase a maximum of two dozens of those donuts..so Gnet and I being bored and having all the time to waste in the world (now that terms is over),WE JOINED THE QUEUE..and it took us 2hours45minutes to finally reach the counter and we bought our donuts.here's some spastic shots of Gnet with her donuts at the foodcourt.

oh before I forget,here's the pictures that we took at the costa sands chalet on my 18birthday.I love you guys,thanks for the wonderful celebration!! (:

okay im just gona stop here.but thrs more pictures to come..of me n vanny big boob girl!haha.

Monday, June 11, 2007

fotografia

kong's bday dinner at the banquet.

you could actually put something inside those caves.

joanne's a freak..and now we all are.

sunway pyramid.

dining at jacks

Sunday, June 10, 2007

happy holidays

It was almost two months ago since I was blogging,guess all the school work and holidaying have got me to totally forgot about this.ohwell,sorry to those who were actually checking for updates from me.well I was away at KL and Phuket during the hol and am now at Kuching.Home is the best place when I can blog cause that means I'll be bored to update my blog almost everyday and equipped with the stable connection to upload as many pictures as I want..unlike at the hostel,ugh.Speaking of which,I'll be having term exams right after the holidays = a period of absence..again.haha.
anyway,this holiday have been a rush from one place to another.but it was good overall,got to catch up with my beloved cousins at kl(gosh I miss them heaps now) and to goof around till unearthly hours and at the same time ignoring my aunt's nagging.
We were out at Zen last night,spending cyn's last day in town.we were suppose to just drink,chill n chat at Taman Sahabat but suddenly felt the urge to groove and thus head down to town.But we ended up sitting with reuben richard and their friends at zen,drinking.It wasnt a long night as cyn got a flight to catch the following morning.Goodbye to ivan mark n cyn,see you all end of yr (:
anyhoo..there's nothing much to write about at the moment as Im just waiting for time to pass till the day Im back at singapore again.N then it'll be my big day!wheeee xP
I know Amy and Gracia are planning something for me..haha yes you may say Im perasan but those two goofys seriously and absolutely just cant lie and its so obvious tht thrs somehting coming up for me.SO I'll jolly well give them face,play along and act stupid.hehe (: so fun so fun.
anyways here are come pictures of my cute cousins and any other random stuff tht I can find in my comp now.