The Choice

Friends are angels, sent from above,
A gift from God, symbolizing love.
They never fail to brighten your days,
With so many marvelous, wonderful ways.
Their wings are invisible, their halos too,
And before figuring out, they're gone too soon.
Sometimes things do take a wrong turn,
That scars your heart, it hurts, it burns.
I once heard that friends stay and never will go,
But for now, Im 15 I already know.
All this is nothing but a lie,
In reality, there are only goodbyes.
You can cry and moan, and wail all you want,
But this is one wish, God can never grant.
Maybe it seems surreal, a devil's mastermind,
But once you learn, its a skill to survive.
Ths world is cruel, harsh, undeniably cold,
But if you try hard, you can change it to gold.
Life is bumpy, and everyone stumbles,
But pick yourself up, remember dont grumble.
Soon enough you'll kearn how to walk,
Just like how babies learnt to talk.
We fall all the time, its inevitable,
But in the end, its incredible.
Sarah, listen to me now,
You can choose to swim, or you can drown.
There will be struggles when things fall apart,
Just remember, never to put on a fasade.
Believe me now, you have nothing to lose,
Afterall, FRIENDS, are the family you choose.


We make choices everyday.From the moment we awake,we are already choosing whether if to get up or not,whether if to go to school or not,whether if to have Yong Tau Foo or Roti Prata for recess etc etc.But there are also times when you just make the decision without any hesitation because those kind of choices are the type of choices where you are certain of the outcome,for the answer already lie deep within your heart.Such if life, unfair and cruel, forcing people to make choices amongst the ones they love.Why cant we just get to keep both?Is there such rule that we must forgo the other?This is unjust.
Listen to me now dear,Im sure you know who you are.Whatever happened back then,or what I did unconciously that offended/hurt you guys in any way, Im utterly,terribly,sincerely sorry and apologise for it from the bottom of my heart. Truly I never have the intention to purposefully dismiss you guys from my life. It never meant that now that Im moving on with my new school life, you guys are ideal. NEVER!I have never stop wondering what is it that made you guys to even have the idea/thought to think such way of me.To be honest,its really unexpected and it tears me apart within to know such fugly truth.I have nothing to defend for I dont think I did anything wrong.All I know is that Ive tried my best, Ive given my best, I offered my everything and all the time possible to keep this going.But if this is how my effort turn out to be,there's nothing I can do for its beyond my control, beyond my power.It takes two to tango.However,I definetely do not wish things to be as awkward and foreign as it is right now.I believe in us.I have faith in us.Whatever happened to all the promises,vows, and pledge to stay strong forever and ever more?is this it?is this the end of it?Im surprised of how far we could get.
To me,I've always cherished, treasured and held you guys close to my heart..all the time.Maybe you dont know,because I dont show?I have no idea.All im certain is that,come what may,for better of for worse,Im always here for you guys.I'll do anything just to put that smile back onto your pretty faces, even if it means withdrawing myself..as long as it makes you guys happy.Just bear in mind that,Im always here for you,I'll try my very best,within my power and means to be with you through hard times, to lend you a listening ear, to offer you my hand to pick you up, to give you my shoulder to cry on, to simply accompany you just to make the silence a little deafening.Just incase I dont make it there,know deep within you heart and soul that Im stil there.Its just up to you to believe it or not,because I sure hell do.Even as time goes by,and you dont hear anything from me,doesnt meant that Ure insignificant to me.RUBBISH!never have I weighed you values and compare it to my new friends here and then see who's of better worth for me to hang out with.NO!everyone is unique and beautiful in my eyes.You guys hold a special place in my heart,a rather important one as well.Because Im not ashamed to declare that I'd die for our friendship, that I'd sacrifice all that it takes to rekindle this relationship.I dont see this as THE END,instead this is merely a stepping stone to bring us to a greater height.I shall do whatever He plans, for I know I can do anything through Him who gives me strength.And I have faith that this is one of His plans for me,so that I would go throught this short term of bitterness and eventually realise His works and appreciate more of what I have.If all these awkwardness and pain is too much to bear,just let me know and I'll take a step back and not interfere anymore.Whatever is it,always remember that I have your back.
Now the question lies in you,DO YOU HAVE FAITH?DO YOU BELIEVE?